Jan
13
"dark"
sometimes i try to see in the dark. when i got back from england, i tried to maneuver around my room without lights, even without opening my eyes. i kicked my suitcase each time.
if i can train myself to memorize the layout of my teenage room, if i can lie in this bed & feel for the lightswitch on the first try, then i can close my eyes & remember your face, the curves of your fingers, the point of your nose. if i keep training, i will always be able to remember your soft shoulder blades & the rise where your shoulder met your arm without looking at pictures of us on swim team.
if i can see in the dark, then i can still see your face.
